Finding Frustrations

“They’re doing the thing I want to be doing! Why can’t I do it?”

“Ugh!! Why can’t I be her? She has her life together”

“They’re succeeding in their life and I’m sitting still!”

“When will my time come?”

Any of these thoughts sound familiar? Yeah, me too. Almost too familiar. I think I thought one of those thoughts today. Why is it that we are never satisfied with the moment in life we are in? We see someone doing well and bam, the green eyed monster shows up!

What’s My Status?

I was at work today and stroke up a conversation with this guy. He was making small talk asking me where I went to school, what I got my degree in, etc. I proceeded to tell him I was still looking for a “big girl” job and I’m sure he could tell I was getting irritated. Not because of the conversation but because I wasn’t in my “big girl” job yet. Then, he said something to me that was so simple but made an impact. He said that I’ve still got a good 40 years (implying that I was still young and didn’t need to have life figured out now). Well, obviously I knew that but it’s something I forget a lot. I want things to happen quick.

God Isn’t on a Schedule

A professor from my college days always used to say that God grows things. It had stuck with me for years! There are mysteries in the Bible we as humans aren’t meant to understand but there is one mystery that catches my heart more than the others.

“But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day.” -2 Peter 3:8

My brain hurts trying to figure this out. It makes no sense because we only have one concept of time. We think of our days as 24hrs. Our weeks are 7 days. Years are 365 days. We have night and day. But I think God’s days are very different.

Now, Peter says this in one verse and it’s an important verse but I think he only wants his readers to focus on the rest of the chapter. Peter continues to write about how since God’s view of time is different we shouldn’t worry because God always keeps his promises. We may think God has forgotten about our request but really, the time isn’t right. God’s timing isn’t right. His timing is all that matters. So, instead of worrying, cast your anxieties on him (1 Peter 5:7). We are to continue and focus on growing in grace and knowledge (2 Peter 3:18) because what is happening now is preparing you for what God has coming around the corner. It may not look exactly like you imagined, in fact it probably won’t, but it’ll be Gods plan and Gods plan is best.

So I say to myself tonight, and you should too, that those people on my Facebook feed, Instagram photos or Twitter who are doing great things are doing their great thing. Not mine. I must focus on growing to be more like Christ. I may miss a great thing if I focus on someone else’s calling instead of mine. Surrender the vision I had and allow God to use every situation to his glory.

Simplicity Isn’t Simple, Is It?

I miss school.
Wait, did I really just say that???
Yep, I really do. Now, don’t get me wrong, I don’t miss some things but I do miss the simplicity of it all. I’ll tell youth that they need to enjoy their time in school and all I get is a very confused look 😉

Simplicity. What do I mean by that? I mean that in school everything was/is planned out for you. You knew exactly what you were going to do each day. You knew you’d spend your weekends at sporting events. You knew who your friends were. Life was simple. Of course in the moment it seems everything but, but, being out of school just for 5 months I see how easy I had it.

As humans we were created for community. In Genesis, where God created man He specifically says that it’s not good for man to be alone. The author in Hebrews calls us to meet together so that we may encourage each other. And then one of my favorites, Proverbs 27:17 which says, “Iron sharpens iron, and one man sharpens another.” It is all throughout Scriptures that we are not just created but commanded to ban together so that we may hold each other accountable, bearing burdans and grow together in Christ. Even Jesus had his small group to walk with.
So where do we go wrong?

I’ve been thinking about this and I believe that we, as a society, have become lazy. Now I know this isn’t news but I want to focus on something. We are so used to things in life being spoon-fed to us that even making friends seems too hard. I’m guilty of this as much as the next. I don’t want to try. I want people to come to me. Beep, beep, beep, wake up call! It doesn’t work like that!!!  We become content with going to work and coming home with nothing in between. No heart-to-heart conversations. I found myself rather convicted the other night because I got so frustrated and kind of jealous over a friendship. That’s the silliest thing I’ve ever done. If I’m jealous because someone has a better friendship than I do with a certain person, I can definitely do something about it. Be intentional. It’s really not that hard.

Simplicity can be simple if we stop being selfish and reach out

For me, big groups can be intimidating. I get lost in them easily because I don’t have a strong personality. The result? I feel like people don’t like me or aren’t interested. That’s not the case. If I know big groups aren’t my thing but I want to connect, pick someone and go to lunch or coffee. Do this a number of times and before long, those big groups don’t seem so big. Again, be intentional.

Life Happens…Write It Out


Those of you who know the TV show Greys Anatomy know about Meredith Grey & Christina Yang’s “Dance It Out”. Those of you who aren’t familiar with it allow me to explain. Whenever Meredith or Christina are stressed out, they dance it out. They shake, jump around and laugh until their problems are no longer big. Well Greys Anatomy, when I’m stressed, I don’t dance. I write.

I wouldn’t say that I am stressed but life has happened. I completed my Masters Degree. I graduated. I’ve looked for a job. I’ve been turned down from jobs. I turned 25. I’m still living at home. To be honest when I decided to return to blogging I had to really decide what I was going to share first. I still haven’t decided 🙂 But I did decide that I wanted to share a Scripture God has placed on my heart for this time in my life.

“But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.”

Philippians 3:13-14

You see, for me a lot has happened the past 6 months. I have had ample opportunities to be discouraged and disheartened. I have gotten bogged down a few times but when this verse was spoken that week in church, I felt God saying, “Stacie, this is what I want you to do.” Yes, I should learn from things but I can’t be stuck in the past. I can’t be too focused on future things either because no mater what, my goal and ultimate prize in life is to spend eternity with Him. I have learned the importance of not being focused on the future. The past year I have been so set on not putting down roots because I was sure I would be moving into a full time job right after graduation. I passed up community (dumb decision for another post) and many other things. What I missed was that God wanted me to take a breath and settle here. And just because I’m settling doesn’t mean I’ll be here forever. It just means that I am happy where He has me. Growing.

So Greys Anatomy, life happens. You can dance but I’m going to write.

ps. sorry for the shortness, I’m just excited to write again and wanted to get something out. more to come in the next week!


Finally Blue Skies

Sometimes He calms the storm
With a whispered peace be still
He can settle any sea
But it doesn’t mean He will

Sometimes He holds us close
And lets the wind and waves go wild
Sometimes He calms the storm
And other times He calms His child

These are the words of a song that I remember from my childhood by Scott Krippayne. I don’t think I ever understood the powerful meaning of these lyrics until recently. I read over them again and again tearing up because I know that in my recent storm He has chosen to calm me while the storm raged around. The overwhelming feeling of thankfulness sinks in. I am glad that He chose to calm me, His child, instead of the storm. Why, you ask? Because I wouldn’t be where I am spiritually if He had chosen to calm the storm instead.

I have gone from being devastated to encouraged to scared to mad to just being done with my storm. I have been tossed every which way. I’ve been pushed and pulled, tempted and trialed. I’ve had to make some hard decisions. Now, three months later, my storm is finally over and I couldn’t be happier to see blue skies and the sun starting to peak through. However, even though now I am over my emotionally draining storm, I was brought so much closer to the Lord than I have ever felt. He chose to hold me close while my winds and waves crashed around me. He gave me peace at night and strength to get through the day. He guided me when I couldn’t see the road in front of me. If He would have chosen to calm my storm, I wouldn’t be as strong as I am today. I wouldn’t have the victories over Satan that I can claim today.

He is Sovereign over everything, including my life and every little detail is perfectly planned. Now, on the other side of my storm I am not looking back. I am, however, not going to forget what I have learned. Now, I am facing forward with my eyes fixed and my feet planted on my solid rock Jesus Christ. That song is something to always remember, though. I will come up on another storm at some point and I have to remember that sometimes God will chose to calm the storm but other times, the storm will get worse before it gets better but HE WILL HOLD ME CLOSE and won’t let me go.

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