Not Ashamed?

I started my new job last week and after my shift my head was so stuffy with information. It was the same feeling I got when studying for a test. At my job, of course I met new people. Everyone was so nice and funny!! There was only one thing I was dreading being asked and I found myself strongly convicted because of it. The question followed my response to them asking where I came from. I explained that I had moved back after finishing school so I could complete my internship. Their next question was: where did you go to school? This simple question was the question I dreaded being asked. Why, you might ask? Well, simply because I went to a Bible college and when they find that out, it’s pretty obvious I’m a Christian. I’m not sure why this bothers me.

Maybe it’s because I want to fit in?Seem “normal”?

Why am I so ashamed of the fact I went to a Bible college? Or even just the fact I’m a Christian?

Why am I not more excited to share?

Why do I keep waiting for someone else to bring the topic of God up?

“For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes: first to the Jew, then to the Gentile.” (Romans 1:16)

A fellow blogger, Holley Gerth, recently wrote a blog post similar to this topic and she talked about when we get to this point, the point of avoiding circumstances or making excuses, we really are waiting for the perfect moment. She makes her readers realize that that perfect moment will never happen. She’s so right!! If we keep waiting until they bring up the topic or until those butterflies go away we will be waiting forever. I’m sure the Apostle Paul had butterflies when he confronted pharisees. I’m sure he felt defeated when he was thrown in jail numerous times. We are no different than him or any other. We all have the same power to influence those around us.

I almost posted this last week but I’m glad I didn’t because I got the chance to watch the recent film, God’s Not Dead. If you haven’t seen it, it’s amazing and it surely put a tug on my heart especially since this topic has been on my heart lately. At the end we are challenged to text everyone in our contacts three words: God’s Not Dead. The convicting thing is that I immediately thought: I can’t do that! What would so-and -so think? Ugh, I disgust myself. I’m still not there yet, but it’s my daily prayer that He helps me become more bold through the little things and I hope it’s your prayer too.