I started my new job last week and after my shift my head was so stuffy with information. It was the same feeling I got when studying for a test. At my job, of course I met new people. Everyone was so nice and funny!! There was only one thing I was dreading being asked and I found myself strongly convicted because of it. The question followed my response to them asking where I came from. I explained that I had moved back after finishing school so I could complete my internship. Their next question was: where did you go to school? This simple question was the question I dreaded being asked. Why, you might ask? Well, simply because I went to a Bible college and when they find that out, it’s pretty obvious I’m a Christian. I’m not sure why this bothers me.
Maybe it’s because I want to fit in?Seem “normal”?
Why am I so ashamed of the fact I went to a Bible college? Or even just the fact I’m a Christian?
Why am I not more excited to share?
Why do I keep waiting for someone else to bring the topic of God up?
“For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes: first to the Jew, then to the Gentile.” (Romans 1:16)
A fellow blogger, Holley Gerth, recently wrote a blog post similar to this topic and she talked about when we get to this point, the point of avoiding circumstances or making excuses, we really are waiting for the perfect moment. She makes her readers realize that that perfect moment will never happen. She’s so right!! If we keep waiting until they bring up the topic or until those butterflies go away we will be waiting forever. I’m sure the Apostle Paul had butterflies when he confronted pharisees. I’m sure he felt defeated when he was thrown in jail numerous times. We are no different than him or any other. We all have the same power to influence those around us.
I almost posted this last week but I’m glad I didn’t because I got the chance to watch the recent film, God’s Not Dead. If you haven’t seen it, it’s amazing and it surely put a tug on my heart especially since this topic has been on my heart lately. At the end we are challenged to text everyone in our contacts three words: God’s Not Dead. The convicting thing is that I immediately thought: I can’t do that! What would so-and -so think? Ugh, I disgust myself. I’m still not there yet, but it’s my daily prayer that He helps me become more bold through the little things and I hope it’s your prayer too.
I have exciting news to share: I got a job!!!! 🙂 Obviously I am overjoyed since I have been praying and waiting for 2 months with my money slowly running out. I started to get scared because I only had a little left and what would normally be able to last me about a couple months or so would only last me until the middle of August. This is because I have my one little internship class to pay for and my amount wasn’t going to cover it. So, I could’ve easily panicked but what good has that ever gone? I did what I have been and I trusted The Lord and what’d ya know-He provided!! It seems like the past few times I go to write I get a post almost done and then something happens-the Lord switches things up on me and puts something else on my heart that He wants me to share. Last night I had the opportunity to experience something great. Worship, for me, is the way that I feel the most connected to God. Some people find their connection through reading, some through nature but for me, it’s raising my hands, singing my heart out individually or corporately to my Savior. I am even guilty of worshipping in the car (dangerous I know) but sometimes I can’t help it. Anyway, some girlfriends and I attended Elevation Church’s worship night and out of worshipping individually and corporately, I would choose corporately. There is something about singing, weeping, kneeling, and raising hands with other believers that gives me chills. And why shouldn’t it? In heaven we will be worshipping our King for eternity…all of us…I can’t even picture it!! (Revelation 4:8-11).
“The hour is coming, and is now here, when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth, for the Father is seeking such people to worship him. God is spirit, and those who worship him must worship in spirit and truth.”
This worship experience got me thinking, yes I worship with words but how do I worship through my everyday actions? Many people mistake the term ‘worship’ to mean just songs but actually worship means your whole life, from the inside out. It’s not just the songs in a church service but the taking of communion, the message, and the community. When it says to worship in spirit I believe that it means to serve God with just that, your spirit. In Romans 1:8-10, Paul states how he serves God with his spirit because he is sharing the Gospel. All of us should have that burning desire inside to be more like Christ and in that fulfill the commandment to know Him and make Him known (Acts 1:8). The truth part of the John passage speaks to God himself. Jesus in John 14:6 called himself ‘the way and the truth and the life’. The truth also comes from the source, Scriptures (Ephesians 1:13). This is the truth that anchors and saturates worship that is truly Christian. So I found myself asking the questions: is my spirit worshipping God? Am I putting God first?